Forever Brothers

This was hard to see today. 😢
There aren’t many days that go by that Tavyn doesn’t talk about Quinn. How much he loves him, how much he misses him, how he wants to bring him home to us. He will see things and say how much Quinn would love it. It’s amazing the bond he has with him even though he’s not here with us. There is no doubt in my mind that Tavyn would have been an amazing big brother to Quinn, and I’m sure Quinn will never let Tavyn forget him.
We all love and miss you so much Quinn!!!


Happy Birthday Sweet Boy

I’d be lying if I said today has been easy. I’ve always done my best to find the good in the things that happen in our lives. But today I’m struggling. Let’s be honest…today I’m a hot mess. Today I know that’s it’s okay to not be okay. I miss this precious little baby more than I could ever be able to express and wish with every fibre of my being that he was here with us. I know he is in a better place…I know he is with those that love him…but I sure do wish he was with us, in our arms. I love you so much Quinn. I am so extremely grateful that you chose me to be your mom, us to be your family. And even though the pain is unbearable some days, I would do it all over in a heartbeat, just to know that you are our precious son FOREVER and one day we will get to hold you in our arms again. Your brothers and sister miss you so much too. They talk about you all the time. Tavyn always asks if we can go see you and says he wants to give you a big hug. You are so very loved and missed. I hope your grandma is making your day extra special for you today…and let her know that I need her arm around me extra tight today. Happy Birthday sweet boy.

I promise it’s there

The past two years have been full of some of the ugliest days I could ever imagine. Days so ugly I wasn’t sure I would pull through the day…much less the next ugly day that was to follow. I realized that if I was going to make it through the the day, the week, the month, the years to come that I HAD to find the good. One of the hardest, but most important things is to learn how to find the good and the blessings hidden in the rough. I promise you they are there!! Even on the ugliest days.